Auditions

An audience comes to a show to be entertained and there for it stands to reason that they would be easier to please. Auditions are intimidating because a producer or an agent could really care less about you entertaining them and more than likely wont be entertained. To them you are another face in a crowd and they have seen many others like you. So I understand the concept of walking off stage and talking about how my performance was terrible. But usually this is to my fellow actors, my director. When an audience member comes to compliment me on my performance more likely than not i reply with a simple thank you. No matter how bad I fell I have done, my job was to entertain them and that I did. It is different with fellow actors and directors etc. I feel as if they are judging me, comparing me to something unachievable or even to themselves. It is not about simple enjoyment anymore and that intimidates me. Now reading this I hate the concept of auditioning or performing for anyone but an audience even more than I did before.